Hello blogger friends! Hope you all are enjoying summer!!!
It's been a few days since I've done any work for school....and I'm feeling guilty! Why is that?? This is summer and I earned this time off, right?! Yet I can't help feeling guilty for taking a few days off.
Maybe it's because so many other people are still working and I am VERY aware of that. Yet I know so many teachers and we're all not working right now. :/ My first two years of teaching I taught summer school and that made me feel more productive...granted I couldn't really take a vacation, but I didn't have the money for that anyway.
So the last few years I've spent the summer re-doing unit plans, lesson plans, coming up with new ideas for the classroom, decorations, and recently, making TPT items for my store. And so if I take a few days off from that, I feel really guilty.
Maybe I need to stop letting the opinions of others seep into my thoughts...like those that complain that teachers don't work the whole year and "get summers off". I always felt like I had to prove something to them. But I don't! When I break it down, I do more than most people do in a year, and I do it in 9.5 months!
During the school year:
-I teach 4/4 [no prep on an accelerated school schedule]
-Coach Softball [Used to coach cheer which was 11 months each year]
-Am a BTSA Support Provider for new teachers
-Often sit on 1 or 2 committees a year
-Oh....and I grade approx 700 essays per school year...each taking ~10 min...sometimes 5 min if it's a mini paper...yeah...that's a lot of time!
Yet I still feel judged for not working during the summer. I think this is a big lesson in letting things go. I need to let go of other people's judgment issues and know that I work hard. I will continue to work on my TPT stuff and new lesson plans for next year, knowing that I will be ready when the school year starts. That will have to be enough.
My job is enough.
The work I do is enough.
I am enough.